Monday- PEACE

Are you ready for the rest? Hmm, perhaps before I start part two I best explain the prologue before part one.

My husband and I have been trying to get this life changing surgery for me for at least 6 years now. We have both been on board with this and hoping for everything to work out. Year after year the insurance companies have denied us. It was heartbreaking. Now we didn't want this so I could be a fashion model or anything, we needed this for quality of life. I am not talking about a hundred pounds, I had triple almost quadruple that amount to lose. But I have a good husband. He stuck by me even when simple housewife duties were no longer able to be performed by me. But it was depressing to be denied every time, so this year when I qualified for Medicare and decided to try again, I wanted to wait until I knew it was really going to happen before I told him. To spare him the let down yet again.

So the day after Fathers Day I saw the surgeon. I started the six month long process. I met with every DR imaginable. Cardiologist, Pulmonary Dr's, Psychiatrist, was tested and declared cancer free. I found a physical therapist to help me find safe ways to exercise. I went to a 6 hour long educational course, attended many support groups and worked really hard to lose the 10% of my body weight. All through this I left many hints around but nothing particular. I was sure he would figure it out quickly. But as the months passed by he was just proud of all the progress I was making.

Even going into the hospital on the surgery day I was still waiting for the shoe to drop and say sorry AK but we made a mistake, you have no coverage for this procedure. Some of you (Shelly, Ruth) know how much I cried and worried and prayed about this. I still don't know which insurance paid for it, but I know it's done so it doesn't matter.

I knew I'd have to tell him before surgery and planned on it, and then the gallbladder went bad and had to come out. It's basically the same surgery, incisions and time frame, so I thought I'd wait and surprise him and tell him after it was all said and done. I was so looking forward to melting away before his eyes. I can lose 80% of my excess body weight in the first year. That's so exciting and he would have his wife back.

I never hid it from the blog, and he knows about the blog but just never came by. At first I was sad that he didn't figure it out and then it became almost funny that he didn't. We have that kind of relationship though. Married 28 years, and now a lifetime to go, for both of us. Who could ask for a better gift? I couldn't.

So now the surgery is over and I am coming home, should I tell him now? Later? After I lose 20 pounds, 50 pounds, 100 pounds? I just don't know. I prayed and asked God to show me when, and I knew He would.

So did I tell him? Well this is so long maybe I'll save part two for tomorrow.
I just wanted you all to know that the secret was not to be mean or inconsiderate. It was out of compassion and love and honor and I have no regrets about that. In fact I have PEACE about it.

So with that I'll leave you with my newest dishcloth design. Fresh off the scanner today (my son can't find the camera)


PEACE

Love AK